Last night I went to my old high school's graduation. It was such a weird feeling knowing that I was in their place exactly a year ago. I feel so much older now, and so out of the "high school scene" but yet I'm still only 18.

In other news, I've lost two more lbs. I haven't been doing all that great anymore, but I've still been trying. Memorial Weekend I gained 6 lbs back from eating "normal" and decided to take this diet thing slower. I'm still eating healthy, and watching portion size. I'm pretty excited because I fit into a pair of new pants that didn't fit a few months. I'm down to 154lbs, and I feel pretty good actually. I still want to lose like 10lbs, but if it comes off slowly, I'm happy with that. I don't want to gain it back.

Aha! I'm DONE with my first year of college, and I couldn't be happier. I'm guessing I will be getting a 3.2-3.4 GPA this semester, which I'm totally happy with. So far I have an A in English, an A in Education, and a B in Geology. Now I'm just waiting on my Art and Political Science grades. The best scenario would be I get an A in Art and a B in Political Science, but we shall see.

Diet and exercise wise I've been doing so freakin' good! I weighed myself yesterday and I was down to 156.5, that's a total of 5.5lbs lost in the past month, and a lb and a half from last week's weigh date. I've been exercising every night, and eating as much fruit and vegetables as possible. I feel great!

I had told myself that I would weigh myself every Thursday, but have decided to skip this week because I really don't want to see what it has to say. I have been keeping up with my dieting, and exercising (I'm so sore!) but it's that time of the month, and to be blunt I feel like a giant stuffed pig. I did it! 158lbs! One more lb, gone! I know I said last week was 158lbs, but it was closer to 159lbs. Plus, I was on a really crappy scale that my 240lb father jumps up and down on until it reaches his "actual" weight... No wonder I'm over weight.

This is one of the hardest things I've ever done, but I am really so proud of myself. Finals, period, and dieting really don't work well together, but I'm doing it. Last night I wanted a bowl of ice cream so badly, but instead, I did my toning exercises and drank a bottle of water.

The great thing about doing this is that I'm beginning to feel sexier. I wore a dress a few days ago that I haven't worn in years, and I got so many compliments and Garrett could not keep his hands off of me. I feel great.

Off to walk!

Any one feel like buying this for me? I will bake whoever does a plate of cookies! :D

This weekend was tough. I did good Saturday morning-afternoon, but went to Garrett's after work. We went out to Mexican food for dinner, and anyone who knows me knows I LOVE Mexican food. However, I was proud of myself because I didn't eat devour everything on my plate in minutes. I didn't even eat everything! I've always had a problem stopping when I'm full, and I'm slowly training my mind and stomach to recognize being full. Plus, after dinner Garrett and I went on a brisk 40 minute walk.

The evening wasn't so good though. Two margaritas and two cinnamon-pumpkin muffins. Enough said.

Today was better. I walked again this morning, and am planning to do my toning exercises during the Amazing Race. For breakfast I had a cup of yogurt, and a handful of tortilla chips. Lunch was a bacon-ranch salad from McDonalds with grilled chicken, snack was a low fat ice cream sandwich (only 140 calories!) and dinner was a bowl of cereal with 1%milk.

I'm really trying this time, and even though I didn't do THAT great this weekend, at least I'm exercising and practicing portion control.

I'm so tired, and once I finish writing this, it's bed time for me. But I'm trying to keep this updated with my weight loss, so here it goes...

For breakfast I had a bowl of Honey Bunches of Oats with 1% milk, snack was a bowl of butter free low fat popcorn and an apple, lunch was a can of tuna fish w/ a tablespoon of mayonnaise, a half of a cucumber, and 16 wheat thins and dinner was a can of "healthy choice" vegetable soup. I was absolutely starving about an hour ago and "splurged" with was fat free, sugar free yogurt. Calorie wise I'm between 1000-1200, which is my goal. I feel like I've eaten a lot of food, just nothing that's very good. I keep telling myself, "Maddie, that piece of pizza will make you happy for five minutes. A bikini body will make you happy all summer."

I also did about 30 minutes of toning exercises, and will be doing my walking routine in the morning before work. My Mom told me today that if I get down to my goal weight, she'll buy me these jeans. Score!

I have been trying to lose weight for God knows how long and I finally feel like I can do it. I started dieting and exercising on Monday, and have already lost three pounds. I know three pounds isn't a lot, and my goal is still 24 pounds away, but I am so proud of myself. We had pizza for dinner tonight, and anyone who knows me knows I LOVE pizza- BUT I only ate ONE piece! I had one piece, two cups of salad, and a half of a cucumber. That's amazing. I know this is going to be a long, strenuous battle, and I know sometimes that I will feeling like giving up and stuffing myself with Taco Bell and ice cream but the feeling I have right now is priceless. I feel confident, excited, and strong all at once, and it's definitely an amazing feeling.

I've been thinking about this for awhile, and have decided to make my livejournal once again public. I really don't write anything here that is super personal, and am actually pretty comfortable with whomever reading.

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